Sisters

When I was born at first it didn't even seem like my parents were going to stay together. This I didn't learn till later in life but at the time of my birth they were uncertain of their relationship let alone if they were going to have more children together. My mom had to fight to stay in high school as a pregnant teen (she was 17) and my dad dropped all his extra classes and a few scholarships so that he could work full time and save enough so that when I was born he would have enough saved for a damage deposit on an apartment and first months rent. After Graduation (me being 3 months old) my parents finally thought that their relationship was strong enough to start living together. They lived together on and off until I was two and my dad finally proposed to my mom. (There is ALOT MORE to this story and someday when I have my emotions gathered Ill share but that is not what this was about) They Finally moved completely in together and set a date. Shortly after I was 2 the were married and soon decided that they were ready to bring another life into this world! They had a boy the following June. As I have mentioned in earlier posts I was devastated as a three year old and called my little brother baby Sara for weeks. I so longed for a sister to dress up with and play house and dolls and such with but I knew that I had to make due with what I had and he played along fairly nicely with the help of a few swats here and there(don't tell my mom I confessed that)!!! According to my mom they tried for a few years to have another and I believe due to their rocky marriage they weren't blessed with another child until I was 16 and just as it looked like they were doomed to divorce they decided to make things work no matter what and renewed their vows and shortly after became pregnant with my Lil bro Jake. At 16 I really didn't care what they were having I was in my own world and doing my own thing. I was a little disappointed when they did tell us at the ultrasound it was for sure a boy as he turned and wiggled his little package to the world but I was just happy that my parents were FINALLY HAPPY. When Jake was born I got to experience the miracle of birth and even got to help. I loved him so much a spoiled him as much as I could. But deep down inside I still longed for a sister. A year later almost to the day I met Nathanael. After dating him for about a month I met his parents and ALL his siblings. Nathanael has 2 brothers and a sister and at the time both brothers were married and his sister was dating, I also met all their children. Ben (nats oldest brother) and Heidi had Benjamin and Amanda and Heidi was pregnant with Kirby, Byron (Nats older brother) and Kyla had Brayden and Cheri who had just introduced James to the Family! Wow that was a very interesting day for me. Everyone was extremely nice and easy to get along with I was kinda shocked. I come from a family that constantly argue and all have hidden agendas and from all the Werdals I didn't get that at all. After another month of dating Nathanael proposed and I gladly accepted, When we told ALL of his family at Thanksgiving they were thrilled especially all of my soon to be sister in laws. I soon asked all of them to be in my wedding party and they all gladly accepted. I didn't really know any of them very well but was looking forward to getting to know them. As the wedding plans drew on and we got closer to the date our relationship started to crumble and soon it became apparent that it was all to do with this huge wedding neither of us wanted. We cancelled the wedding and eloped. Nathanael had chosen Byron to stand up for him so I asked his wife Kyla. We were supposed to elope just the 4 of us until we both agreed our immediate families needed to be there. To this day we both only have one regret and that is that Cheri and James couldn't be there with us. Through the last almost 5 years I have slowly got to know more and more and become closer with my sister in laws and I have to be honest I don't care what anybody says I HAVE THE BEST IN LAWS EVER. None of my sisters has ever judged me and none of them have ever spoken badly about me to my face anyways and if they have behind me I truly do forgive them. I hope that over the next few years and throughout our lives we grow to be best friends. I know that I cant go back to my childhood and play dress up or dolls with them but we can still do our girly things (which we have) and make the most of the rest of our lives as sisters!!!!