My Last Baby!!

As Ive been waiting and waiting and waiting for this baby its made me think about alot of things and Ive also learned more about myself and my amazing husband! First I have learned that having patience really does pay off. I was sure that this little girl would be early! Joey was 4 days late and Carver was 4 Days early and according to `they` they say your third is supposed to come early and is supposed to be easy! Well shes not early and I'm thinking this is not going to be as easy as Carver was. In my eyes my Doctor made a huge mistake telling me about half a month ago that she would be early and would more than likely be an easy birth as she is much smaller than the boys were. So I am 5 days over and its New Years Eve and I'm sitting here thinking that I should be reflecting on the last year but all I can think about is that last few weeks and about this little baby girl inside of me that isn't coming out!! Over the last few days I have been granted the peace in knowing god will let us have our little miracle as soon as hes ready. I have also been granted Peace in knowing that we will be provided for while Nathanael stays home with me instead of leaving his brothers company he is going to take Parental leave and be with me for a few weeks. The week leading up to Christmas was hard for me emotionally. Not only was I anxiously awaiting our little miracle but I was also trying to deal with all the Christmas hullaballoo and such and I was constantly taking it out on Nathanael and he just stood strong and we both pulled through it. As Christmas winded down and life got back t normal that's when I realized I cant MAKE this baby come out when god feels we are ready he will bless us. But as I know my body is getting ready for this baby I am reminded that this will be our last baby! That kick I felt might have been one of the last kick inside me forever, the last set of hiccups might have been the last I feel! It saddens me to think that this pregnancy will be my last, that my belly will never expand like this again and my stretch marks will never stretch out again, but in the same thought I think I have carried this beautiful child for almost 10 months I have been her home while she grew from an egg to a infant and now I have to release her into this world and watch her grow from an infant to a toddler to a child the a teen and a beautiful women. I will miss being pregnant alot as I have been for almost 3 years now. So being that this is my last pregnancy I am content to wait but at the same time I'm really ready to meet this little girl!!