What I want to be when I GROW UP!!

When I was a child my parents always told me that I could be whatever I wanted to be when I grew up. As I got older I changed my mind more often than I cleaned my room or did my chores. Once I got to the age where I needed to seriously think about it and think about colleges and such it became a tougher decision. I knew that my parents couldn't really help me with tuition and I didn't really want to run up a whole swack load of student loans to take something that I was really sure I wanted to spend my whole life doing. I thought about going into fashion, it was something I was really good at and enjoyed doing but I wasnt sure that I wanted to turn my favorite pass time and hobby into a career. I also though since I liked working with people that I could be a nurse or something along those lines, but one I did some volunteer work in the hospital I soon learned that I did not want to do that my whloe life. I also thought of things to do with the computer and the web but sill I wasnt sure I could devote myself to one steady career. I was still in this consant battle with myself when I met my husband and I soon realized after he asked me to marry him that adventually something would pop up and I would do it then. I started working with the mentally challenged teen that lived with my mom. My family was a hos home (or respite home) for kids with mental and physical handicaps for a major portion of my life. So when my mom asked me to help her out a few days a week it just felt natural that I did so I helped her out. After getting married I soon realised that I was pregnant. So I helped my mom out till I couldnt anymore and then shortly after that my husband got hurt at work and I needed to be the bread winner. So I went to work at a Professional Aid to mentally challenged adults. I really enjoyed my job and the people I worked with and such but I still wasnt sure that I wanted to do that for the rest of my life. I got Pregnant again and I worked till I went on maternity leave with Carver.

While I was on Mat leave I decided to research and look for a new career. Finally I thought I had found it and started school in April 2008 to be a massage therapist but as soon as I started school I found out I was Pregnant again. This wasnt a huge deal and I talked to my instructors and the assured me that I would be able to continue and when the baby came in December I could bring her to class with me and continue my studies as long as I could keep her quiet and content. This was all fine and Dandy untill I started throwing up every minute of the day. I could keep up on my monthly homework and I couldnt even drie to class once a month without being an hour late due to pulling over every 10 min on the highway. I soon realized I was not going to be able to continue with it like I had planned. I also was working casually at my old job which was fine but I still wasnt enjoying it like I once did.

Now that I am getting closer to my mat leave with this baby I have been thinking alot about what I want from my life and the conclusion that I have come up with is that I dont want to finish massage school and I want to be a stay at home mom and a house wife until the kids are in school then I will decide WHAT I WANT TO BE WHEN I GROW UP!! Mind you Ill only be 23 when Joey goes to school and 25 when the baby goes to school so I have lots of time to decide!!