This baby inside of me!!!

This is my third pregnancy in three years!! Wow I really didn't think those words would ever come out of my mouth. I have two amazing little boys that keep me on my toys and I know that, that will never change. When we first decided to start trying for our third I was a little nervous and to tell you the truth I never really weighed all the pros and cons. I basically left it up to god to decide weather or not we would even have a third. Now I am sitting in front of this computer typing my thoughts on this tiring yet joyful experience as my baby kicks and punches me from within my abdomen walls. When I take the boys out and people finally realize that my little bump is actually a baby they more often than not ask me how far apart they all will be and I know for a fact that this will only get more frequent as I get bigger and when the baby actually gets here. The question that follows the age spacing is WHY, or Your going to be a busy mama. After I explain the ages. Which is Joey and Carver are 15 months apart and Carver and the Baby will be 17 months apart. I merely say I wanted all my kids really close to give them the opportunity to be good friends. Most people agree with me and others smile and nod and others will ask were there any other reasons. I have thought over this countless times and when I look into our future I think wow its going to be so cool when they get older and we can all go camping and hiking and do all sorts of stuff and not have to worry about a little one lagging behind or just getting out of diaper duty just to start it all over again. There are so many reasons that I can think of why we are having our kids this close and I love all of them. I know its a challenge and it has been a challenge. For example when I was pregnant with Joey I slept over 14 hours a day spread out, I did what I wanted when I wanted. When I was Pregnant with Carver I would sleep when Joey napped or went down for the night and we still pretty much did whatever we felt like. Both pregnancies were amazing and I loved being pregnant. This pregnancy has not been so easy. When one of the boys is down the other is awake and if I manage to get them both down at the same time I end up doing something or other and then they wake up shortly after one another. I have also been so utterly ill with this one. I could not keep anything down until week 15 and after that it was only because of the help of medication but I still couldn't keep most foods down and the medication made me extremely exhausted. Finally about 21 weeks I was able to eat without being on the medication but still I had to watch what I ate and textures still bothered me. I was slowly starting to get depressed because I wasn't getting enough minerals and vitamins (not able to take prenatal s, I threw them up almost as fast as they went down ) and also because my belly had not really started to show. I'm now 31 weeks and I can pretty much eat everything, some stuff still bothers me. My belly has finally grown and now looking back I was crazy for wanting it to so fast. I am finally starting to enjoy being pregnant just in time for it to end. After I had Carver I missed him kicking and tumbling inside of me but I was so in love with him that I soon got over that and now I'm thinking I am finally enjoying this baby but at the same time I am so eager to meet it. I found out Monday that I am expecting my first and only little girl. I have dreamed about having a little girl ever since I can remember. I think the first time I realized I wanted to be a mommy is when my mom brought Rj home. Hes three years younger than me. I was so dissappointed that he was a boy and not a girl I locked myself in my room for hours but I soon came out and started being a little mommy. This little girl of mine will be the first Grand Daughter on my my side, and the second on Nathanaels side but Amanda is 5 and everyone has been waiting for another little girl since. I am so excited that Amanda will have a little girl cousin to play with amongst the six little boys she has to play with now. I am so pumped for this little girl and that is where Ill leave it at tonight.