EMOTIONAL

First off HAPPY VALENTINES DAY. The day and love and all that yay! This post is truly un related and basically just to update friends and family of our last few days. I will try and do a more up beat love post later. Two weeks ago N was very sick, after taking her to the er she was diagnosed with a bronchial infection and a double ear infection. The doctor we saw also told us it was very possible she also has asthma (which runs rapid in my family line)We knew that something like this was possible since she has been sick a lot in her little life. After dealing with all that and us being sick the last two weeks we were wreaks last week. Last Friday N hurt herself and started to cry, she cried until she was blue and shortly passed out and came to and everything was back to normal. She had done this five times in the last week and a half when Tuesday she did it without being upset or hurt and crying. I should also mention she will pass out from getting so upset due to an injury or just being upset. Tuesday after school my mom put N in her carseat and shut the van door. I then came around and opened the other door as she was passing out. I bolted through the van to her and woke her up. She turned bright red and then pale white and started crying. That was the last straw for me and I took her to the er. I should also mention to those who do not know K did this a few times but always due to being really hurt. N and I spent some time at the er waiting for urine and blood work to come back. Once our doctor received the results she called a pediatrician and confirmed her diagnosis. She came in and diagnosed N with Breath Holding Syndrome or Spells (BHS) Basically N's nervous system sends a signal to her brain to shut down when she is upset or hurt. We have to carry on with life as it is while she goes through this, which can be until shes two or until shes five (five is rare) This is a common issue with kids and happens more commonly then I knew. For me its hard to watch my baby pass out when she is upset or hurt and I need to deal with it the best I can by staying calm and relaxed. That being said its something I am struggling with. As I said on FB today I believe we are all given what we can handle, for some that's easier to believe in then for others. I also believe everything happens for a reason. At times its harder to have faith in these beliefs but I am doing my best, We are changing how we discipline with out giving in and still staying strong and firm. We have to be more aware of our surroundings and circumstances. I have to keep my emotions strong so the kids and those we are with don't panic when N faints.