I am no longer a hibernating bear, usually I don't exercise during the winter. Bowling the last few winters has been enough. Last winter I was pregnant so I couldn't to much more than bowl. Summer finally hits and I am out at least twice a week maybe more playing baseball. It's more to me than playing ball, I usually do a lap or two after the game and one before, so I usually get in a good amount of cardio.
My biggest excuse is I hate winter. I hate being cold, I hate ice and snow I hate it all but alas I live in western Canada and really can't get away from it during our seven months of winter. I rather not go to the gym, I hate being cold so I don't run outside and basically I just eat and hibernate all winter until spring and baseball starts.
In October I stopped nursing the baby and started to put the pounds back on. I was okay with the first few and didn't really pay attention. Then one day I stepped on the scale and almost died. Really where did those ten pounds come from? That's all I've gained and it has completely diminished my self esteem. I kept telling myself "Okay tomorrow you'll start working out, tomorrow." Well tomorrow turned into "Okay Monday" Monday turned into "Okay after Christmas" After Christmas turned into "After the new year" And well that turned into "Okay its never happening"
Last weekend my business partner and I hosted a boudoir photo shoot for our business and I had the brilliant idea that I should get some photos done for the hubs. I felt awesome, I felt like I looked awesome. Well on Monday when I saw the photos yeah they were great the photos were fantastic, I however realized that I need to get into shape, I need to look better than I did during that photo shoot. That was my breaking point. I have spent the last week in my sweats. I don't want my husband to see how I look. I know nothing really has changed but the way I see myself does. I know in my head he'll love the pics, I know he thinks I am beautiful and sexy but right know I don't feel that at all.
Those photos made me see that I need to lose the extra pounds and when I do I know how good I will feel, not only will I feel better about how I look, or what the scale says, but I know once those ten are gone I will feel great and be in better shape and have more energy. That is what I am aiming for. Going outside with the kids to build a fort or ride bikes and not feeling like I cant chase them or lift them or spend two hours squatting making a snow fort. I don't want to spend the first two months of baseball getting into shape I want to already be in shape.
So no hibernating for me for the rest of winter (which around here could be 3 more months)I am awake and ready to go NOW!!
If you are like me and hibernate I challenge you to get of the couch. Even run your stairs a few times, do whatever you have to do to feel good about yourself!
3 comments:
Another very timely encouragement Brandy:). I've been thinking the same thing & am trying to figure out how to make it happen! Thanks:):)
I read your blog and it moved me to tears. Don't know if it's hormones today or if somehow you have a way of expressing what many of us feel inside. The whole "not feeling comfortable in your own skin" has haunted me for years. Perhaps the key is to love yourself where you are today and with dilligence and perserverance make the necessary changes to be in a new place in the future. From one friend to another, you are truly an amazing woman and you give and give and give. Now that I have read your blog, I feel that you may have a future in writing. Each blog has left me inspired and I can relate to what you say because at some point I have been there and done that! Thanks for sharing
Thank You for your encouraging words Ingrid!!!
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