Hmmmm back to nights

I am sitting here listening to Dora and boots on their next adventure. Its supposed to be quiet time. Carver is laying on the other couch tring to rest but his ever persistent big brother is trying to distract him. Kaity's napping and by the time she wakes up Carver will be out and Joe maybe just maybe will stay quiet until Carver wakes up. I'm still recovering from my weekend of rest. Hmm does that even make sense? No No it really does not. Oh to sleep soundly through the night with my Loving warm husband holding me. That is my ultimate want. Some days I think of it as a NEED. Like today. Nathanael was home all weekend. BLISS. On the weekends hes home I go to bed early and can actually fall asleep before midnight and I don't often wake up before 10am. I usually fall asleep in his warm loving arms and wake up to the door softly opening and a kiss on the tip of my nose or on my cheek. Absolute Bliss. Ont the weekends that Nats home Carver wakes up maybe once a night. That's right, yup you really did read that right, ONCE maybe even not at all some nights. This throws me for a loop. Why does he sleep so well when Nats home? Why do I have to get up 4 to 12 times a night with him? Why the change? When he does this it makes us think its behavior related but then I look to my own sleeping habits. I sleep way better when Nats home. I don't even get up to go pee. My body and mind shut down completely. I feel safer and at peace. Does Carver feel the same? The children's hospital is sending done a monitor that keeps track of his oxygen and heart levels. This machine was supposed to be here this past Friday but it never showed. I waited to call the hospital until today to see if maybe it was all delayed due to the long weekend. The hospital said that they had sent it. Then why is it not here? Why wasn't it here on Friday? I thought that it would be easier to do while Nat was home, but sitting here and writing this I have realised that had we done the monitoring while Nat was home what would that prove? NOTHING!!! Whatever is happening is still happening while Nat is home just not to the same extreme. It all started in July, Nat was still here full time then. I believe there was a mix up and the machine isn't here yet because the timing was all wrong. It needs to be done while hes away and I needed my eyes opened to see that and the machine not showing up and me calling today was just a way to show me this.