4 WEEKS

Ohh my I cant believe I have only four weeks left of this pregnancy! I am astounded on how fast this pregnancy has gone. I'm sure its because I have 2 toddlers and I am they type of person that has to have a thousand things on the go! I am sure that, that will all change when this baby comes and ill have three kids to worry about and not as much time to worry about everything else! When I look back on the last nine months I am completely flabbergasted on how fast they went and what all took place! In four weeks, well hopefully drastically less I will be a mommy to a beautiful little girl. I am so pumped!!!!!! I am so sick of blue and trucks and cars and Diego and boy things, I just want to be girly again!!! But yet I am restraining myself from buying alot for my precious little girl. I guess you could say I'm in a state of shock! I wanted to know what this one was so desperately and I knew myself without seeing an ultrasound right from the moment I felt her kick I knew she was a girl. But still I feel it is too good to be true. With the boys it didn't matter what I was having and with this one I wasn't sure how I was going to react if the tech told me it was a boy but yet when she told me 100% that it was a girl I was too shocked to even believe her. I have a picture to prove it and yet I still cant believe it. I guess now that I only have four weeks left and the Doctor thinks this one is going to be early that I should probably start getting ready! My labour bag isn't packed, the baby and my coming home bag isn't packed. the car seat needs to be washed and I should probably get the list of people nat and my mom need to call when the baby comes ready but at the same time I'm thinking "Why bother!" I was over prepared with Joey and I drove myself crazy! we went to the hospital 9 TIMES cuz I thought maybe just maybe I was in labour and 8 TIMES i came home without a baby! Carver I was prepared maybe slightly over prepared I don't even think I used anything I put in my bags other than my undies and shampoo, everything else I got Nathanael to bring after I had him, I didn't even put him in the outfit I was going to bring him home in I made Nat bring me a onsie from hoe cuz it was like 40 degrees the day we brought him home and I had bought a warmer outfit thinking it was cute. So as of right now if I go into labour I have nothing packed, nothing ready and no plans made for what we are doing with the boys if this baby comes. Doesn't that sound lovely! I'm thinking Ill get on the plans for the boys but the rest Ill just throw into a bag what I know i need before we go to the hospital and anything else nat will just have to come home and get! As for all the stuff at the house that needs to be ready I'm just going to leave it till the baby comes because what use is it having it all ready when it takes 3 min to do it and we wont use it till we get home and settled anyways!

Joseph Levi

Joseph, Joey, Joe, JoJo, Or JOSEPH LEVI WERDAL is Our Oldest!!! These are all the names he gets called on a daily basis. I have been tending to use Joe the most as he is getting older and more grown up. I cant believe that my baby is almost THREE oh my what am I going to do! I have been observing him a little more closely these days and I have learned quit a bit about my ever changing little boy. I'm sure if Carver could talk he would agree with me that Joey is a typical big brother. He cuddles when its the best time for him and he puts Carver in his place a few times a day. He continues to amaze me everyday. He is in the middle of a learning curve and adds 2 or 3 new words daily and is starting to place them together properly, I know hes still a little behind what "they" say he should be but hes learning extremely fast. What words he does speak he says pretty clearly and when he puts them together you have to kinda piece them together but he does speak full sentences on occasion. He continually shocks me on what he has learned on a daily basis. He watches a show on TV that has a little girl that speaks Chinese and he also watches two shows that a little girl and a little boy speak Spanish. A few weeks ago I was putting laundry away in our bedroom and he knocked at the door I asked him to go play until I was finished when I came out of the bedroom I noticed he was playing cars on in the hallway so I quietly walked passed him into his bedroom to put clothes away in there and as I walked past him he looked up and said "Ni Hao mom" Which means hello in Chinese. I was completely flabbergasted by my 2.5 year old said hello in another language. He also Said thank you in Chinese the other day which I was also astounded at. I guess even though he is not watching the TV that is on 24/7 he is still learning. This pregnancy has been really tough for me and I have been laid up quite a bit between throwing up and trying to regain energy. Joe has been such a big help. He helps me put on my shoes and socks and he rubs my feet when I have them up and most the time brings me what I ask for within reason. He does however sometimes defy me. His favorite thing to do when I'm busy is to break into the baby's room/ my craft room and steal pens and markers and color anything and everything. This is where hes at right now and I'm so in love with my oldest little boy and I am sure as he grows up he will be a great big brother to Carver and the baby.

My boys

I have been spending alot of my day playing and spending time with my boys! I know once this next baby comes I wont have as much as I do know to spend with each one so I thought (I also went through this before Carver was born), That I would spend as much time as I can with each and both boys playing with them and talking with them and really getting to know them before this baby comes and my attention is split once more. So while Ive been doing this I have been trying to figure out how I would preserve the time I spend with each of them, finally after reading someones blog I thought I would Blog about each boy and how they are at this point in their life. Ill also put a copy of this in each of their gigantice scrapbooks.

What I want to be when I GROW UP!!

When I was a child my parents always told me that I could be whatever I wanted to be when I grew up. As I got older I changed my mind more often than I cleaned my room or did my chores. Once I got to the age where I needed to seriously think about it and think about colleges and such it became a tougher decision. I knew that my parents couldn't really help me with tuition and I didn't really want to run up a whole swack load of student loans to take something that I was really sure I wanted to spend my whole life doing. I thought about going into fashion, it was something I was really good at and enjoyed doing but I wasnt sure that I wanted to turn my favorite pass time and hobby into a career. I also though since I liked working with people that I could be a nurse or something along those lines, but one I did some volunteer work in the hospital I soon learned that I did not want to do that my whloe life. I also thought of things to do with the computer and the web but sill I wasnt sure I could devote myself to one steady career. I was still in this consant battle with myself when I met my husband and I soon realized after he asked me to marry him that adventually something would pop up and I would do it then. I started working with the mentally challenged teen that lived with my mom. My family was a hos home (or respite home) for kids with mental and physical handicaps for a major portion of my life. So when my mom asked me to help her out a few days a week it just felt natural that I did so I helped her out. After getting married I soon realised that I was pregnant. So I helped my mom out till I couldnt anymore and then shortly after that my husband got hurt at work and I needed to be the bread winner. So I went to work at a Professional Aid to mentally challenged adults. I really enjoyed my job and the people I worked with and such but I still wasnt sure that I wanted to do that for the rest of my life. I got Pregnant again and I worked till I went on maternity leave with Carver.

While I was on Mat leave I decided to research and look for a new career. Finally I thought I had found it and started school in April 2008 to be a massage therapist but as soon as I started school I found out I was Pregnant again. This wasnt a huge deal and I talked to my instructors and the assured me that I would be able to continue and when the baby came in December I could bring her to class with me and continue my studies as long as I could keep her quiet and content. This was all fine and Dandy untill I started throwing up every minute of the day. I could keep up on my monthly homework and I couldnt even drie to class once a month without being an hour late due to pulling over every 10 min on the highway. I soon realized I was not going to be able to continue with it like I had planned. I also was working casually at my old job which was fine but I still wasnt enjoying it like I once did.

Now that I am getting closer to my mat leave with this baby I have been thinking alot about what I want from my life and the conclusion that I have come up with is that I dont want to finish massage school and I want to be a stay at home mom and a house wife until the kids are in school then I will decide WHAT I WANT TO BE WHEN I GROW UP!! Mind you Ill only be 23 when Joey goes to school and 25 when the baby goes to school so I have lots of time to decide!!