I have been pondering life recently. Thinking about our family and all the changes we have been through the last 5 years. Thinking about how not only our family has grown but how Nathanael and I have grown as well. Five years ago last weekend was when we started dating. I knew from the moment my eyes met his and I walked away from him that day leaving him stunned, that I would marry him and sitting here five years later from when we made the decision to date, I am married to him, have three amazing and beautiful children with him and I am even more madly and deeply in love with him than the day we met, the day we made that decision, the day he proposed, the day we promised in front of god and our family that we would love each other no matter what as long as we both shall live. I love him more today than the day that I found out I was pregnant with Joe, more than the day I gave birth to Joe, the day that I found out I was pregnant with Carver and gave birth to Carver. I love Nathanael more today than the day I found out I was pregnant with Kaity and the day I gave birth to her. I love him more today than I have loved him the rest of our relationship. We have grown as individuals and as a couple and we will continue growing together until the day we die. This last five years I have gone from a teenager to a wife and lover to a mother and as I sit here and ponder the future and reflect upon the past I am at peace. Our relationship has been through its highs and its lows and we will continue to have them. I know that as I lay in the valleys of the lows I will have my husband to help me climb to the highest mountains and he will have me. I will support Him in all of his valleys and on the top of his mountains. Our recent moves to further our life's changes will not be easy and I don't expect them to be but I know as long as we believe in each other and lean on each other that we will trudge through it and find ourselves and our family on the mountain top rejoicing together.