Overwhelmed

I'm sure every mom goes through this at some points maybe even many times, but I'm sure I'm pretty close to my breaking point. I don't know what to do I have tried talking to friends and my lovely husband but it doesn't feel like I'm getting through what I am feeling I thought that maybe if I started writing that I would be able to get it out and trust me im not aiming this at anyone and I am definitely not trying to get everybody to feel sorry for me I just need to vent! I really appreciated Nathanael being home for roughly 6 months. Some days I even took it for granted that I could make a phone call, check my email and simply have a shower without being hollered at or interrupted in some way. Even as I sit here and write this Kaity is screaming, Carver wants milk and the kitten is even crying! I know that this is all part of being a parent and having 3 babies under three. Nathanael has been back at work for a month and I have experienced having to go grocery shopping with three kids all of which have to be in the cart or they will disappear. not fun and where the heck do you put the groceries I wish I could have taken a picture of that one. I usually wait to have a shower till he gets home but by that time I'm too far gone and just want to sit on the couch or go to bed! Some days I put a movie on and Kaity in her bed (where I know she'll be safe)and sneak off but it never fails as soon as I get shampoo in my hair or shaving cream on my legs someone is calling, or crying or the phone is ringing. I have some major struggles going on right now with certain people in my life that I wish I didn't have but that's life right and I'm also working one to two days a week to have extra cash and a little break. I've been especially frustrated with the boys, and I really don't want to be. They know all about the potty, they know what they are supposed to do with it and they do it when THEY want but not consistently and it never fails that when they are not wearing a diaper that they pee or pooh all over the floor URGH! like I said before I am having issues with certain people and I have concluded that my biggest problem is that I cannot say the word NO!! Those people in our lives are adding to my Chaos and I cant just step up and say no! They are cosintly intruding on my life and I want it to STOP! I love my kids and their is still lots that I need to learn and say but I am having a difficult time!

CARVER IS 2

It seems like just yesterday that I was in the hospital looking at the newest addition too our family! Carver James Werdal was born on Thursday July 12th 2007 at 6:35am weighing 8lbs and 1 oz!! He was a beautiful baby and now is a little boy! He loves to climb and snuggle with his stuffies. Hes walking and talking and loves his big brother and his little sister. I was concerned when we had Kaity that he would suffer being the middle child but there is no way to forget him! He is sooo silly and loveable. He is a thinker is is always tring to figure something out and he gets this look in his eye and you know there is something he is plotting!! Happy Birthday My little Boy Mommy Loves you

Ever Changing LIFE

All Our prayers have been answered! Well Most of them (I still haven't won the lottery but I guess I would have to play in order to win LOL just joking)! We have had an amazing start to our summer!!! 2 weekends ago we went to a friend of mines place for the evening! there was a few couples there, almost all the women I knew but Nathanael had only met the guys a few times.Its so nice to meet new people and to connect with them. I have been spending alot of time with the moms from the Moms group I joined last summer and now that Im working with 2 of the moms, I have made some really close friends. Anyways so after the get together we went home and had a really good heart to heart about how we both have been feeling and some of the thoughts that have been on our minds! We discussed with a couple about going to the beach the next morning, so the next morning we got up and ready and headed for the beach! We had a great time and the kids had a blast and we all got along really well! (Prayer One Answered) Nathanael being off work was hard financially and tough emotionally as well! Financially we had to wait 11 weeks for EI and had to pinch pennies and as soon as we thought we were alright the van died, then bills had piled up so bad we had to prioritize and had to go with out a lot, but we delt with it. emotionally after just having a baby I just wanted to get back into my routine and that was not going to happen with Nathanael home. We got into a new routine and we started to get closer and closer. I started to work (prayer 2 answered) and I love it! I have never been a really good house keeper but when I started this job cleaning other peoples houses I really started to WANT to keep mine cleaner. I have started here and there but it already feels better and I feel like I can keep it this way. (Prayer 3 answered) I also really love it and its great money and it will help us catch up faster! (prayer 4 answered) We have been doing alot with the kids and together, we have gone to the new indoor playground a few times, we went camping at the farm this weekend, and have gone to the park and for a few walks. Last Night we got a call that we have been waiting 6 months for almost exactly!!! Nathanael is back at work!!! (Prayer 5 answered) So today after work I did some cleaning, put the boys down for a nap and did the dishes and some more cleaning and started supper it finally felt sooo good to have NORMAL back (prayer six answered) We also had a call 2 weeks ago for something else and this will be a working progress and I dont want to say too much yet and Im sorry Im not spilling but Im leaving it to the lord and we will keep praying but it was a start to another prayer answered! Thank you lord sooo much for all you have given us! So our lives have changed again and we are getting back into the swing of things and the start of new things!!!!